Here beside me

“I loved you first , I loved you first. Beneath the stars came falling on our heads, but they’re just old light. They’re just old light.”

I’m feeling pretty sick right now. The irony is, I’ve taken two full days off of work under the guise of being sick and now, now I’m actually feeling it. It’s just the rain I hope, but hopefully I’ll be up from under the weather before tonight because I think I need to bike to the clinic to pick up a doctor’s note to confirm I don’t have the Staph infection that’s plaguing our office.

I’m pretty sick of working, and I just got another job at Vector selling knives to people. It’s $18.05 an hour but it’s kind of like selling Tupperware; you buy your own set of knives and then make appointments to show them to people and get paid per appointment. Apparently some guy made $40,000 in his first summer working, but I   that’s probably extraordinary. Anyways, if I was going to do that I’d probably go home for a week at a time to sell to people around Niagara, I know more people who’d be interested in it there and it’d give Erik and I more time to spend together and I know how we’ll both like that.

Anyways, it’s a bit hard to type right now because Charlie’s curled up on my lap and keyboard. I guess she really enjoys watching the words fly across the page. Usually I’d be kind of annoyed at her, she’s been frustrating as hell the past few days, but I’m feeling a bit down so I’m enjoying the company. I’m not really sure what’s wrong with me. I just got a job, my rent is paid, I just got 87.5% on my Cognitive Psychology midterm of which I was convinced I would fail, but I still just feel despondant.

I thought Spencer was here, but maybe he disappeared off for a walk. I wish it wasn’t raining. I wish Erik was here. I could use a good cuddle.