Let us go up in fire, let’s go up flying.

But that’s just his cover… From what is under it, all his imagination, his passion for a creation which he has discovered uncovered a world, of amazing sensations, his own little nation… I don’t care, I’m flying.

Crunch time comes before party time, and we sure are crunching down to the last minute. Yesterday Lauren went shopping for party things and picked up cupcake mix and muffin tins, streamers, balloons, flowers for our crowns, icing and a bunch of other neat things. All that’s left to pick up is our keg, I’m getting all of the weed after work for the brownies and then on Friday I’ll pick up a punchbowl and work on making the most delicious, alcoholic punch of life.

And then hopefully a party that will forever linger in my heart as the most awesome house warming party ever thrown.

Anyways, it’s been a good past few days, I’ve been working like crazy and I think that spending that much time in one place doing the same thing is turning me batshit insane. I think I finally found a good shift to work, I’ve been trying out a few new daily schedules to see which one works best. 9-12, 12:30-3:30 was nice because I got that nice half hour break and still put in six hours. Today I’m working the typical, eyeball squishing 12:30-5:30, but tomorrow I’ll be doing 9-12, 12:30-3:30 and then 6-9. That’s nine hours of work and I’ve found before that having the few hours between the shifts gives me time to get some stuff done (studying, guitar, cleaning, a bite to eat…) and still do nine hours a day without being burnt out.

In other news, I’ve been trying out a new band called Imogen Heap which is actually really fantastic. Very me, I think, so I’ll be giving them a listen and hope that it catches on. I’ve been feeling pretty stale with my music repertoire as of late.

I’ve been having dreams that I just can’t interpret lately, I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been smoking more weed than usual, but they’ve just been strange. Plots that don’t go anywhere or relate to anything, this lingering feeling that there’s something happening that I can never quite put my finger on… Maybe that in itself is reflective of how I’ve been feeling as of late but I don’t know. I almost feel like having this time on my own will give me the time to meditate and do a bit of self-discovery anyways, it seems like things are all pointing in that direction anyways.

After the party I’m going to paint, get inspired and start doing some good things for myself. I can figure out what I want to do with my life and my time and it’ll be swell.

Speaking of swell, I found this amazing keyboard at the pawn shop for $129 and Lauren and I are hoping to split the cost. I’ve been aching for a piano again and this is the next best thing. That said, maybe I’ll just buy it myself… I wish wish wish that I had more money to spend. I’ve got this vacation to pay for, school to pay for, rent and utilities and all of the little things that I just rely on to get by. What’s a girl to do?