Seems more like a letter

It’s under my skin but out of my hands, I’ll tear it apart but I won’t understand. I will not accept the Greatness of Man. It’s a world gone crazy, keeps woman in chains. So Free Her… So Free Her…

I don’t want to turn this into “AHH WORK! AHH WORK!” But I’ve grown to fucking hate CSI.  I’m going to print of resumes after I finish writing this so that I can go apply downtown. I’m even going to give Tim Horton’s a try. Or maybe I can take over as manager at Taco Bell (yeah, right).

Anyways, the landlord just came by for the rent without calling which makes him a stupid douchebag. I don’t have rent and nobody else is home and Nate told me last night that he’d come by in the evening. I wasn’t expecting it at all, but I told him to come back around six. I’ll have MY share of the money, but that certainly doesn’t account for the other 825 that nobody has. I’d tell him that we just don’t have it but will by Friday, but I’m too scared and frankly, it’s not my job to deal with that sort of thing. ANYWAYS, stressful.

I’m feeling kinda bummed about life because I don’t like my job and it’s not even a good job and I don’t know where I should be looking around to get something. I guess in the back of my mind I’m trying to live up to my parent’s (read: Dad’s) expectations of what I should be doing with my life. I mean, money is money, at this point I just need to make x amount of dollars to be happy and get by, but I feel like my parents will be upset with me if I get another shitty job, and then I’ll feel badly too.

Charlie’s sitting on my lap like a poon and is messing up everything I do. If I don’t pay attention to her she claws me and messes up the keyboard and if I do pay attention to her, I can’t type. What a dumb animal, she’s definitely lucky she’s cute.

I’m pretty sure that we’re going to end up going out tonight. Josh wants to break in his new apartment, Jess is going to come out for a bit, Manny wants to hang out and needs to get in contact with Josh (I’ve got a weird story to tell you about that) and Lauren and Spencer both get paid today so it works out pretty well.

Speaking of the roomies, I have no fucking CLUE where they are, I got swept at 2:00 and they still haven’t shown up. I think I dislike being alone more than I let on.

I miss the heck out of you and am really excited to see you tomorrow. I have a bunch of errands that need to be run over the next couple of days (Grocery shopping, cat food, snake food, laundry???) so hopefully you’ll drive me around a bit. I promise excellent lovings in return!

I love love love you and can’t wait to give you many hugs and more kisses than you’ll know what to do with. Call me when you get off work!

xox